my life as blogged in Art 250

trying to see if my title will change with a new post.

The other day I was at work and had to take a timesheet back to a department where it came from because the secretary didnt sign it. It was fine with me cause I didnt want to be in the office anyway. I got over there and gave the sheet to the lady. A friend of mine works in the office and he pointed to a highschool football schedule on the wall and said didnt you go to school there. The lady said that her kid went there and asked when I graduated and when I told her it was several years ago she then asked me if I knew her son that was 4 years younger than me and when I told her no she was noticably upset with the fact that her little precious could go unknown by someone. She then began talking to me about not being able to get her son's senior page in the year book the way that she wanted it. I tried to lighten the mood telling her that I never even looked at mine and that her son probably wouldnt care too much as to how it looked. She didnt really seem to like that very much. The conversation dragged on for another few minuets and then on my way out I said, "well you know its really nothing to lose sleep over" and she looked at me and said "maybe not for you" all I could say was I guess not. The walk back to the office was not very good all I could keep thinking about was that this lady was absolutly wasting her life worrying about stupid crap. There was absolutly no way of rationalizing that this page in the yearbook was important the way that I know I try to rationalize the things that I worry about. Then I started thinking of all the other people that I know who are also wasting away because they are worrying about dumb stuff too and spending their life worrying to the end of stupid things. It really made sick to think about it, and it then motivated me to persue the group that Im going to lead this semester. I started reading some more articles and re-thinking what it is that I want to go over...and I think both of my options are really inter-related I think that the reason that people are wasting their lives worring about dumb stuff is because they dont understand truth. I want to present the guys that will come to this group with solid truth and see it change their lives and I know that it can. I talked to a guy about coming to the group last night and he was excited about it...doesnt know if he can but he wants to.

Yesterday I started talking with some guys more about what I wanted my semester to look like. Not only with classes and stuff but more to the point what I wanted to see happen with me personally this semester...things that I wanted to grow in people that I wanted to have an effect on and basicly just what I wanted to see God do in and around me through this semester. I talked with D. Doss for a long time and he has a lot of good advice for me to think about. It was also good just to hang around him some and get to know him better. I think that soon Im going to plan out what I want to go through in the small group that I want to lead. I think that Im either going to go through a study on Galations by Tim Keller or reading to book Dont waste your life, by Piper. I think that the guys that Im going to ask to come will get a ton from it and I think that I will grow a lot not only in leading but also just grow in general. Classes look good I suppose, going to spend a lot of time behind a computer which is fine with me. I dont think that Im going to get to go back to Brazil this semester...but it does seem like Ill get to go to Chicago and then to New York over Christmas all in all I expect good things...but at the same time I know that the source of frustration and dissapointment is unrealistic expectations.

This is a kind of assignment that I'm supposed to do for an art class, intro to digital media, but I think its kind of cool cause I was going to start one of these anyway because I think that I waste a lot of time thinking and it all goes toward nothing so now other people can benefit from the wanderings of my mind.

This is a kind of assignment that I'm supposed to do for an art class, intro to digital media, but I think its kind of cool cause I was going to start one of these anyway because I think that I waste a lot of time thinking and it all goes toward nothing so now other people can benefit from the wanderings of my mind.

This is a kind of assignment that I'm supposed to do for an art class, intro to digital media, but I think its kind of cool cause I was going to start one of these anyway because I think that I waste a lot of time thinking and it all goes toward nothing so now other people can benefit from the wanderings of my mind.